This should have been posted long ago, but I was so excited and happy to have my wife back after almost 2 weeks that I forgot to post about it. Anyway, that's no excuse, and I'm terribly sorry. So here goes..
24th August, 2002,455 Vijaypath, Mansarovar, Jaipur
I woke up at 5:00 a.m., which is quite a big deal for me! I kept strolling around my room nervously. I must've smoked 12 cigarettes between 5-6 a.m. and the carbon monoxide filled air caused Sabby(Subroto) to shift uncomfortably in his bed a few times. The night before I had a spat with Chulbul(now my wife) over something very stupid. Well...not stupid actually..I was irritated coz I wasn't getting enough time to spend with her. Although she was very friendly with all the people in my group, she had a lot of exclusive friends too; mainly due to the Rural Management & Business Management divide. Also, not very helpful was the fact that some of them totally despised me...can you believe that? lol;). Some of them just wouldn't leave her alone..ever!..be it the library or the cafeteria and they made it a point to tag along everywhere she went. She never agrees on this, but I'm pretty sure it was all to keep her safe from my "evil" intentions. The thing was...I and Chulbul were more than good friends...yeah..and everybody knew that...but none of us had said anything. We would have a spree of movies, dinners and Filleto Fish hogging at McD's for a week and then the snatchers would surface from nowhere and we wouldn't see each other's faces for 3 days. This annoyed!!!! me. I was annoyed with her too; why couldn't she just say no to them? But then I realized that they were her friends, so what if they didn't like me, they were still her friends. Even after considering this, I was still annoyed at her for not giving me as much importance as I was giving her. Now, of course, I've realized that I was being plain jealous and stupid. Anyway..coming back to the story; the night before I had come back to the hostel looking all depressed and Sabby had sat down to talk with me. He told me that I had to say something to her...he actually coaxed me into doing it...god bless his soul.
That was the reason I was so jittery that morning...I had decided to say 'something'. By the time I washed up and got dressed (a black full sleeves shirt and blue denims) everybody in my hostel was awake. Maamu(Ankur), Addy(Aditya), Sabby(Subroto), Jalahasthi(Ripon--Jalahasthi means a hippo in Bangla) & Sid(Siddharth) all had their inquiring eyes on me. I said "I'm gonna do it today" and kick started my bike, I could hear the YAYs and 'good luck' screams as I rode out of the gate. Very filmy na?he he
I reached the institute half an hour before her first class started. As always, I went into Kaka's Thadi for the morning tea ritual. The only thing which was associated so closely to me other than the singing and guitar playing was Kaka ki Chai. The farewell title my juniors gave me was "purani jeans aur guitar, wo kaka ki chai aur mere yaar". Oh Ho, here I go again, blowing my own not so trumpety trumpets. I gulped down 2 cups in quick succession, oblivious to the painful burning sensation in my chest and stomach. Then she came, along with Trina, her best friend. Apparently, she had an important class to attend and said that she would meet me after that. The 50 minute wait witnessed a few more cups of tea and some more cancer sticks.
She met me at Kaka ki Thadi after her class and I took her straight to Amul's(our favourite joint in Jaipur). Three hours we sat there, she was nibbling on the miniature pizza while I was busy gulping one ThumsUp after another. I had almost 10 bottles during the 3 hour period..he he. She had sensed it but she was acting all nonchalant about it, and it irritated me a little. I had always thought of myself as a confident man, I still do, but on that moment, it seemed like all the energy and confidence in the world had left me. I was perspiring, and gulping down the ThumsUp bottles to make up for the dehydration. Anyway..I finally mustered up all the courage in this world..and said it!. " I think I'm falling in love with you"...yikkkkkes!!!! I resented it as soon as I said it...what a stupid jerk I was...'I think', 'falling'?? To my benefit, she didn't seem to have paid attention to the bad choice of words:).So that was it...I had confessed my love for a woman for the first time in my life. What happened after that is not important right now...ummm..maybe later. I just wanted to wish my baby a very happy anniversary:)
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Thursday, August 30, 2007
Thursday, August 02, 2007
The Other Woman in My Life
Don't let the title let your imagination wild ok!, I'm quite an honorable man:-). I'm being constantly told by my wife and that THE woman in my life is my music. Not even remotely! true, but I can't really argue with her can I? So, the 'other woman' here would be my wife. As I write this, she's sleeping peacefully curled up by my side. Poor thing hasn't been feeling well for the past few days. We started watching a movie but then she felt tired and went to sleep. I am just catching up on my e-mails and writing this. At first, I had thought of reviewing Accept's Restless and Wild in the UNSUNG CLASSICS category, but I can't help looking at this sweet face beside me, and it's a big distraction for my usually "metal" mind,lol.
Our first meeting was not very pleasant! In fact, I'm constantly being bugged that I had actually snubbed her. This is so so far from the truth. It was the third or fourth day of our MBA, and I barely knew her. We were in a cyber-cafe and she must have waved at me, which I missed!(honestly!!!) and well, she thought I was a snotty arrogant prick. Come to think of it, I somehow, manage to give the same first impression to a lot of people...dunno why?
Days passed by, and I started hearing about her from my hostel-mates. Apparently she liked to have conversations about me, but what was disturbing was that she was always criticising me for something or the other...he he. I didn't do anything to make peace either, I mean why should I? lol...very immature I know. Anyway, a few months passed, and we had come to a point where we couldn't even look eye to eye. It was becoming increasingly awkward for our common friends too. Amidst all this though, there was something, I couldn't put a finger on it, but there was some chemistry. I know it sounds crazy, but there really was. Typically rational people would say how can there be any chemistry without any conversation and blah blah blah. But to me, chemistry is something which doesn't really need words, it's something magnetic, something about the aura/field that governs us. Time and time again, I could see a hint of a blush when our eyes met, and though I really wanted to detest her, I dunno for what reason I was starting to crave for her company. First love hormones I tell ya...he he.
This went on for quite sometime. When I couldn't resist any longer, I finally asked her out. She accepted, and you know what was my first gift to her...a tube of Fair n'Lovely....darn my stupid mind!! I was so bloody confused and jittery that I just couldn't think like a sane man. Anyway...she seemed to have liked the gift:-). She's very forgiving I tell you. During our dating period, we did have a lot of not-so-good times too, courtesy a few scheming batchmates and one scumbag Economics professor. But I'm not gonna bore you with all of that.
After MBA we spent 4 years away from each other!!! She had joined CAPART in Kolkata and I had gone to London for further studies. She stuck with me during all those years, never growing impatient. Here,I must give myself a little credit too:). We had heard of long distance relationships not working, and people growing out of love etc etc. How the hell can you grow out of love??? I'm not judging here, but I don't understand this twisted concept of love. Anyway...I'm not gonna start on that here. The point is, she is with me now, lying beside me, looking serene and sick;)lol. If I had believed in what people told me, if I had let myself be overwhelmed by the distance and the pain of being alone those 4 years, if I had given in to some stupid primal instincts, I wouldn't have had what I have now and will continue to have for the rest of my days. I think you know what that is:)
Our first meeting was not very pleasant! In fact, I'm constantly being bugged that I had actually snubbed her. This is so so far from the truth. It was the third or fourth day of our MBA, and I barely knew her. We were in a cyber-cafe and she must have waved at me, which I missed!(honestly!!!) and well, she thought I was a snotty arrogant prick. Come to think of it, I somehow, manage to give the same first impression to a lot of people...dunno why?
Days passed by, and I started hearing about her from my hostel-mates. Apparently she liked to have conversations about me, but what was disturbing was that she was always criticising me for something or the other...he he. I didn't do anything to make peace either, I mean why should I? lol...very immature I know. Anyway, a few months passed, and we had come to a point where we couldn't even look eye to eye. It was becoming increasingly awkward for our common friends too. Amidst all this though, there was something, I couldn't put a finger on it, but there was some chemistry. I know it sounds crazy, but there really was. Typically rational people would say how can there be any chemistry without any conversation and blah blah blah. But to me, chemistry is something which doesn't really need words, it's something magnetic, something about the aura/field that governs us. Time and time again, I could see a hint of a blush when our eyes met, and though I really wanted to detest her, I dunno for what reason I was starting to crave for her company. First love hormones I tell ya...he he.
This went on for quite sometime. When I couldn't resist any longer, I finally asked her out. She accepted, and you know what was my first gift to her...a tube of Fair n'Lovely....darn my stupid mind!! I was so bloody confused and jittery that I just couldn't think like a sane man. Anyway...she seemed to have liked the gift:-). She's very forgiving I tell you. During our dating period, we did have a lot of not-so-good times too, courtesy a few scheming batchmates and one scumbag Economics professor. But I'm not gonna bore you with all of that.
After MBA we spent 4 years away from each other!!! She had joined CAPART in Kolkata and I had gone to London for further studies. She stuck with me during all those years, never growing impatient. Here,I must give myself a little credit too:). We had heard of long distance relationships not working, and people growing out of love etc etc. How the hell can you grow out of love??? I'm not judging here, but I don't understand this twisted concept of love. Anyway...I'm not gonna start on that here. The point is, she is with me now, lying beside me, looking serene and sick;)lol. If I had believed in what people told me, if I had let myself be overwhelmed by the distance and the pain of being alone those 4 years, if I had given in to some stupid primal instincts, I wouldn't have had what I have now and will continue to have for the rest of my days. I think you know what that is:)
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